It is almost 3 o clock in the morning and I am writing a blog post..... whats wrong with me and my mind. I don't know why my head works like this, i cannot fall asleep if I have something on my mind. It keeps rolling and rolling around in my mind..... one thought leads to another thought and then that leads to an even more in depth thought. 

    What thoughts go through my head? Well it really is all sorts of things, like my life and how I am growing older and not a little girl anymore. I think about my future and if I am going to be able to find the right guy that can make me happy and will be able to love me for who I am. I think about my future career plans and if I can achieve them. My classes this semester and how hard they are going to be especially college algebra. 

    Most of all the overall question that really keeps me up at night is the ultimate question of the universe.... what comes after death. My mother has raised me to be a Catholic but I don't see I to eye with their teachings. Whenever I think about it I get an overwhelming sense of dread and my stomach feels cold and like it has a huge stone inside of it. I mean I feel like there is definitely something after this life but what exactly i do not know and that is the worse part for me.